healthyhappysexywealthy:
“I am enough
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Finding Yourself

Letting Go

A guy told me in September if he could set me up on a date with this friend. 

Problem. He had been leading me on for 4 months, previously 6 months before that. I had fallen really hard for him. I called him out for leading me on…and he claimed that he had done no such thing. He apologized for me seeing something that was not there…but he had told me multiple times that he had feelings, even over text. I refused to accept his apology.  I even sent him a photo of a text message that he had said that. Then he blocked me off Facebook and Snap. 

BUT THEN. 

He started showing up to my part-time gig, Starbucks. He would stare at me, and not say anything. He would show up once a month. It drove me nuts. The last time (January) he came, he sat beside me, as I did some schoolwork. He saw that my claddagh was facing inwards on my right hand, and he left. Have not seen him since. I kept my ring facing inwards because I was emotionally unavailable. 

My friend told me last night that he was in denial of his feelings. And he blocked me off social media because he wouldn’t stand seeing me happy without him. And that he showed up to my work because he couldn’t stand not seeing me. But the ring…he gave up because he no longer had an in because I was in another relationship and had moved on. This is probably true, as I have not seen him since. 

I re-downloaded Bumble last night. I found his profile, which said he was looking for a relationship. IMAGINE! I laughed, and I cried. I called my friend. She laughed with me. What an idiot. I swiped right, but there has been no match thus far. I don’t anticipate a match. 

I was on Pinterest this morning, and my homepage was all about how the right man would not play games and would not risk losing his woman. It hit me. Why am I pining for a wrong guy? Who is not even fighting for me? Has not even apologized for leading me on? Whatever his emotional status, he has not done anything about it. I don’t feel the need to keep fighting for him if he can’t do the same. This is the turning point, I think, to getting over him. I need better. I deserve better.  

mysimplereminders:
““I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become.” — Carl Jung
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mysimplereminders:

“I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become.” — Carl Jung

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7 Signs that show you’re negatively attached to the past

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1. You can’t, or won’t, talk about it.

2. You’re constantly being hit by “those same old feelings.”

3. You can’t relax and be yourself with certain people from your past.

4. You’re attracted to partners who treat you negatively.

5. You over-react, and find it hard to calm down.

6. You have poor boundaries, and always feel you’re being used.

7. You’re always making poor decisions, and repeating old mistakes.